Beautiful People

I know some really really beautiful people. These are the people that are good for me. People that understand and cherish friendship like I do, people who aren't centered around drama. Which is another thing I learned from my Aunt.

Thank you. :)

Inspiration

I am constantly seeking inspiration, and there are few people in my life who continually inspire me; one being my aunt Beth.

She has impeccable taste in art and everything else. She never ceases to amaze me; I love her beyond the expression of all words. Nothing can change the way I feel about her. She has influenced me so much over the years, and I wouldn't be who I am today without her. She is the source of my imagination, my beliefs, my spirituality, and my creativity.

Anyway: My point was that she has a few pieces of art in her h

ouse by an artist named John William Waterhouse. I find his pieces so beautiful and inspirational. I wish to be as good of an artist as he is one day. The first is called The Mermaid, the second is Hylas and the Nymphs. They are quite possibly the two most beautiful pieces of art I have ever seen.

I'm a firm believer that

people hardly ever mean what they say. I feel like there are a lot of people out there that If they had a choice and weren't influenced so negatively by some that they would be able to decide what they wanted to believe instead of whats popular to believe.

"What people say may not always be true, but what is left unsaid surely is."

Something I struggle with everyday is being able to accept the truth.

It's hardly spoken to me, and that makes it so much harder.

*Two very different inspirations for this blog, that's why it seems choppy and all over the place. But three blogs in one night just seemed a lot.*

Things Fall Apart

AKA- Everything falls apart eventually, and always too soon (for me at least.)


I don't mind change so much, just when people I care about leave. I guess it's because I try to be the best friend that I can be and that I care about all my friends. Then they turn their backs on me and leave me wondering what I did wrong. I've slowly begun to see it happening again in the past couple weeks. I'm sick and tired of it. I just wish more people cared about me the way I care about them.

I just wish everything could last a little bit longer.
Thats all.

One step forward, two steps back.

December 2, 2009 (My 17th B-day)
That's how my night ended last night and how my day started out today. It was an awful feeling, and I truly hate it. It is no way to spend a birthday. Throughout the day I realized little things which all came together in the end. I came to the realization that I appreciate everyone I know. Every person I know has taught me something, especially my friends. Past, present, and future; I am glad you are all in my life and a part of who I am. Past friends, I miss you and I hate that things changed and I hate that I lost you. Present friends, I learn new things everyday from you and I am growing constantly even though some days I feel like I've tumbled down the mountain of everything I strive to be. You are what drives me. Future friends, I am excited to hear your stories, learn your lessons, and be a part of your lives and adventures. You all really do care about me and I am so thankful for you. Thank you for a great birthday, thank you for Jeffery, thank you Mom, thank you Emily, thank you Kelsey.

She Changes Your Mind

"It was your hello that kept me hanging on every word,
and your goodbye that keeps me listening for your voice around each corner.
It keeps me listening for you voice around each corner."

A goodbye not spoken screams louder than one I can hear.

I just want to cry.

But maybe I'm just being super emotional/sensitive right now.

:(

ps- I really wish Copeland would stay together.

MacBook

I recently got a MacBook, the new model that only came out a couple months ago.

You know how Macs are supposed to be like bug-free and super tested and things like that?

Well as you could imagine, I was pretty pissed when I found out that theres a bug that makes them freeze up.

AWESOME LIFE.

I'm going to punch someone if they don't make a free patch to fix this shit.

Ridiculous. :X