NEW BLOG

I started a new blog to complete my new years resolution!

You can find it at:

http://daysequalyears.blogspot.com/

You should follow it! :D

Since it's New Years Eve

and I have company I'll write a couple and finish them later :P

1. Keep a 365 day photo blog

2. Cherish every second of every day

3. Don't care so much what others think

4. Figure out what I want and pursue it

5. I won't let myself cry over boys

thats all for now

Now the one you once loved is leaving.

"Suddenly, a cloud must have cut a hole in my head,
When i was tangled all in your words.
How quick to forget,
We are,
With eyes unimpressed
You're sealing the conversations.
And are you wondering how things could be?
Just staring at the surface,
When all the walls have tendencies.
But it's not your fault when no one taught you how.

And now the one you once loved is leaving.

You're so sure that I'd be just fine here.
But you were surely just taking your own time dear."

The name of the song feels like everyone in my whole life right now.

The lyrics point out once person specifically.

I need to get over this, I need to forget, I need to be strong.

I need to grow a pair, or I'm afraid I'll be cold and bitter my whole life.

Horoscope

Don't you think its really creepy when your horoscope is dead on?

Today mine was:

"Travel plans and communications equipment are likely to be unreliable today. You might be able to find detours, but it will help if you leave a little extra time to get from one place to another. Make sure to drive defensively today. You won't be your most patient."

What a coincidence! You know since I got lost in a creepy little town thanks to mapquest, and I didn't have my phone! Thank God I had Emily and Davis though. :)

Does my life suck or do these things happen to other people?

Have you ever connected with someone, like broken down in their arms?

Then the next day they act like nothing ever happened.

Well thats me and my mom's relationship right now.

I've always been more introverted.

I never really connected with my mom, or my dad for that matter.

Then when I open up to her she welcomes it with open arms, then (I guess) completely forgets about it the next day.

Don't get me wrong, we have a good relationship.

I went through counseling for years so that we could.

Finally a breakthrough on my part, and what does she do?

I'm just feeling like nobody cares these days, except my cat Midnight who is asleep on my arm as I'm trying to type this. Then again he probably just wants to be fed.

:(

Messin' Up

You know how theres always that one person who messes things up for everyone else?

Well right now that person is screwing with my life; mostly my heart and my mind.

They're in my thoughts, everything reminds me of them.

They're in my dreams. They're haunting me.

I can't shake it.

Why? What did I do?

I just want to see him one last time before he goes away.

Because of him I can't let anyone that is good for me into my life.

I wish I could just let him go for good.

Have you ever?

Just needed a hug?

To assure you that the world really is okay?

To show you that someone out there still cares?

To help you make it through another day

without cracking under all this bullshit?

I got a much needed "hug" today.

Not a physical one though.

I just needed to know that

at least someone still cares about me,

even when the person I want it to be the most

doesn't.

Thank you for the "flowers." The "hug."

Your texts were exactly what I needed.

Its amazing how awesome some people's timing is. :)