Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined. -Thoreau

Such a beautiful quote, and so simple too.

When I looked at it today I saw it from a new perspective.

In the past I took it as inspiration and advice.

Today, I saw it as a demand:

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.

as if Thoreau was saying to leave others alone and focus on your life, what you love, and what you do.

That has always been something that gets me riled up.

Let others do what they want, let me do what I want.

Stop caring what other people do.

Stop caring what other people believe.

Stop caring what other people love.

Live YOUR life.

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."- Dr. Seuss

Find beauty in all things.

Seize the day and cherish every moment.

Life is what you make of it

Do what you love/ Find something to be passionate about

Just some of the many life lessons I've learned in the past year or two of high school.

I don't know what I'm going to do next year when everyone is gone.

When all of my heros leave, will all my inspiration leave with them?

When everyone who has instilled passion in my heart has left for bigger and better things will I be the same?

When my teachers who are more than teachers move on,

when these people who are so passionate for what they do exit my life,

will it be forever, will we be able to keep in touch?
All these people have inspired me,

I've learned so much more from them than they could ever know.

How can I possibly still be the same person I am now without them?

How can I possibly still be this strong passionate beautiful person that I see myself as without their encouragement and criticism and influence.

I'm about to cry, so I'd better stop.

Sometimes I just have to stop and wonder.

Be a pessimist for a couple minutes, you know?

Its okay, I'll be just fine.

Why I love my life Pt 2

"I bet Brittney Spears is thinking, 'What do I have to do now!?'" -Mom (on Pink's grammy performance)

"What if she got really dizzy and threw up on everyone?" -Mom (also on Pink's grammy performance)

It's like the whole world went on vacation and got fat together" -Emily Underwood

"Where am I? Where am I? I fell off my yoshi! SHOOT I'm dead again!" -Mom (Playing super Mario Bros with Matthew)

All I can say is, THAT IS ONE BAD WEAVE- Mom

Honey, those steroids aren't gonna help YOU- Mom

It's like teaching Christianity without Jesus!- Mom (On starting US History in the 1870's)

Don't give that little girl a Sprite! What is she like two? It'll corrode her insides!- Mom

Dear ______,

I've found someone twenty times better than you could even think about being for me. He is sweet and cute and funny and I like him a lot. Besides all that he's genuine. Which is what matters. You never were. I'm proud to say I am completely over you, but that doesn't mean I'll forget anything. I just wanted to let you know. Have a nice life. :):):):)

Sincerely,

Elise

A Fire Rages in Me

Dear _____,

You are a total jerk. In fact the biggest jerk I have ever met in my entire life. You only ever used me. You only wanted to be with me when it was convenient for you. I wanted you all along, it just isn't fair. You had me wrapped around your finger and took advantage of me. You lied to me over and over. You blinded me with your lies. You haven't changed at all. I don't know why I even believed you when you told me you had. Never again.

This is me telling you that you hurt me beyond words. I still have feelings for you is whats worse, but I'm done with you and I'm moving on. This is my first step. (Second step: Actually send this to you.)

Never talk to me again.

Sincerely,

Elise Wilson

Don't try to wake me up even if the sun really does come out tomorrow.

I decided that in order to find a guy that's worth my time, I should make a list of qualities he should have.

This way I can get these creepers out of my life :P (In no particular order)

Trustworthy

Honest

Cute

Likable/Agreeable/Friendly (Gets along well with everyone)

Loyal

Good intentions

No restraining orders against him XD

Thinks I'm funny, but can take me seriously

Spontaneous/Adventurous

Under the age 20 :P

Caring/Loving

Won't hurt me/Take advantage of me/Walk all over me

Gentleman-like (Chivalry isn't dead yet)

Doesn't try to impress me with money (Can't buy my love)

Funny/HAS A PERSONALITY

Doesn't act different around different people

Doesn't smoke (Anything)

Gets along with his family, my family, and my friends

Is down for illin with my mom and my aunt Beth (My two favorite people)

Will stand up for his friends and beliefs

Follows Christ

Good music taste (Aka-no country guys that only listen to rap)

Has a life/job/goes to school

Is passionate about something (Nature, Art, Music, Ect.)

Has the Emmy and Kelsey BFF Seals of Approval

Open-Minded

NEW BLOG

I started a new blog to complete my new years resolution!

You can find it at:

http://daysequalyears.blogspot.com/

You should follow it! :D

Since it's New Years Eve

and I have company I'll write a couple and finish them later :P

1. Keep a 365 day photo blog

2. Cherish every second of every day

3. Don't care so much what others think

4. Figure out what I want and pursue it

5. I won't let myself cry over boys

thats all for now

Now the one you once loved is leaving.

"Suddenly, a cloud must have cut a hole in my head,
When i was tangled all in your words.
How quick to forget,
We are,
With eyes unimpressed
You're sealing the conversations.
And are you wondering how things could be?
Just staring at the surface,
When all the walls have tendencies.
But it's not your fault when no one taught you how.

And now the one you once loved is leaving.

You're so sure that I'd be just fine here.
But you were surely just taking your own time dear."

The name of the song feels like everyone in my whole life right now.

The lyrics point out once person specifically.

I need to get over this, I need to forget, I need to be strong.

I need to grow a pair, or I'm afraid I'll be cold and bitter my whole life.

Horoscope

Don't you think its really creepy when your horoscope is dead on?

Today mine was:

"Travel plans and communications equipment are likely to be unreliable today. You might be able to find detours, but it will help if you leave a little extra time to get from one place to another. Make sure to drive defensively today. You won't be your most patient."

What a coincidence! You know since I got lost in a creepy little town thanks to mapquest, and I didn't have my phone! Thank God I had Emily and Davis though. :)

Does my life suck or do these things happen to other people?

Have you ever connected with someone, like broken down in their arms?

Then the next day they act like nothing ever happened.

Well thats me and my mom's relationship right now.

I've always been more introverted.

I never really connected with my mom, or my dad for that matter.

Then when I open up to her she welcomes it with open arms, then (I guess) completely forgets about it the next day.

Don't get me wrong, we have a good relationship.

I went through counseling for years so that we could.

Finally a breakthrough on my part, and what does she do?

I'm just feeling like nobody cares these days, except my cat Midnight who is asleep on my arm as I'm trying to type this. Then again he probably just wants to be fed.

:(

Messin' Up

You know how theres always that one person who messes things up for everyone else?

Well right now that person is screwing with my life; mostly my heart and my mind.

They're in my thoughts, everything reminds me of them.

They're in my dreams. They're haunting me.

I can't shake it.

Why? What did I do?

I just want to see him one last time before he goes away.

Because of him I can't let anyone that is good for me into my life.

I wish I could just let him go for good.

Have you ever?

Just needed a hug?

To assure you that the world really is okay?

To show you that someone out there still cares?

To help you make it through another day

without cracking under all this bullshit?

I got a much needed "hug" today.

Not a physical one though.

I just needed to know that

at least someone still cares about me,

even when the person I want it to be the most

doesn't.

Thank you for the "flowers." The "hug."

Your texts were exactly what I needed.

Its amazing how awesome some people's timing is. :)

Beautiful People

I know some really really beautiful people. These are the people that are good for me. People that understand and cherish friendship like I do, people who aren't centered around drama. Which is another thing I learned from my Aunt.

Thank you. :)

Inspiration

I am constantly seeking inspiration, and there are few people in my life who continually inspire me; one being my aunt Beth.

She has impeccable taste in art and everything else. She never ceases to amaze me; I love her beyond the expression of all words. Nothing can change the way I feel about her. She has influenced me so much over the years, and I wouldn't be who I am today without her. She is the source of my imagination, my beliefs, my spirituality, and my creativity.

Anyway: My point was that she has a few pieces of art in her h

ouse by an artist named John William Waterhouse. I find his pieces so beautiful and inspirational. I wish to be as good of an artist as he is one day. The first is called The Mermaid, the second is Hylas and the Nymphs. They are quite possibly the two most beautiful pieces of art I have ever seen.

I'm a firm believer that

people hardly ever mean what they say. I feel like there are a lot of people out there that If they had a choice and weren't influenced so negatively by some that they would be able to decide what they wanted to believe instead of whats popular to believe.

"What people say may not always be true, but what is left unsaid surely is."

Something I struggle with everyday is being able to accept the truth.

It's hardly spoken to me, and that makes it so much harder.

*Two very different inspirations for this blog, that's why it seems choppy and all over the place. But three blogs in one night just seemed a lot.*

Things Fall Apart

AKA- Everything falls apart eventually, and always too soon (for me at least.)


I don't mind change so much, just when people I care about leave. I guess it's because I try to be the best friend that I can be and that I care about all my friends. Then they turn their backs on me and leave me wondering what I did wrong. I've slowly begun to see it happening again in the past couple weeks. I'm sick and tired of it. I just wish more people cared about me the way I care about them.

I just wish everything could last a little bit longer.
Thats all.

One step forward, two steps back.

December 2, 2009 (My 17th B-day)
That's how my night ended last night and how my day started out today. It was an awful feeling, and I truly hate it. It is no way to spend a birthday. Throughout the day I realized little things which all came together in the end. I came to the realization that I appreciate everyone I know. Every person I know has taught me something, especially my friends. Past, present, and future; I am glad you are all in my life and a part of who I am. Past friends, I miss you and I hate that things changed and I hate that I lost you. Present friends, I learn new things everyday from you and I am growing constantly even though some days I feel like I've tumbled down the mountain of everything I strive to be. You are what drives me. Future friends, I am excited to hear your stories, learn your lessons, and be a part of your lives and adventures. You all really do care about me and I am so thankful for you. Thank you for a great birthday, thank you for Jeffery, thank you Mom, thank you Emily, thank you Kelsey.

She Changes Your Mind

"It was your hello that kept me hanging on every word,
and your goodbye that keeps me listening for your voice around each corner.
It keeps me listening for you voice around each corner."

A goodbye not spoken screams louder than one I can hear.

I just want to cry.

But maybe I'm just being super emotional/sensitive right now.

:(

ps- I really wish Copeland would stay together.

MacBook

I recently got a MacBook, the new model that only came out a couple months ago.

You know how Macs are supposed to be like bug-free and super tested and things like that?

Well as you could imagine, I was pretty pissed when I found out that theres a bug that makes them freeze up.

AWESOME LIFE.

I'm going to punch someone if they don't make a free patch to fix this shit.

Ridiculous. :X